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Amy Ponds of the 99% ([personal profile] allchildren) wrote2011-12-30 03:21 pm
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doctors say I'm the illest cuz I'm suffering from realness

First the announcement: the time has come and I am breaking my last ties with LJ. Just as soon as I can import [livejournal.com profile] where_no_woman over here to DW (approximately a week from now) my business here will be finished and [livejournal.com profile] sainfoin_fields, [livejournal.com profile] trisfic and [livejournal.com profile] hobviously will all be deleted. Everything is preserved @ [personal profile] allbackups and I am sporadically uploading old fic to [archiveofourown.org profile] trisb. I will miss my LJ-only friends, but honestly that number has been dwindling quite a bit as we all conduct our business on other sites, and I have faith we can keep in touch! See you around <3

Second, the annual end of year survey! Hot damn, this is my eighth go at this. It's pointless to link to LJ since those links are about to go dead -- here's 2010, though.


1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
Experience serious withdrawal (that was fun). Break 3000 words on a fic -- pathetic, I know. Uhhh. Life coaching. Obsess over career/branding/marketing. Buy a domain. Set some kind of record for most job interviews without ever getting hired. Have long hair that doesn't look like crap.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
My 2011 NYR was to master poached eggs, and I DID. Next year I want to bring more dinner dishes into my repertoire, at least one a month.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My cousin Jessica, cousin-in-law Emily, and family friends Kristina and Alice. I think my friend Laura probably did by now but she's a big shunning ho and I deleted my facebook SO I AM NOT SURE. #thecomputerage

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My eldest aunt and my mom's ex-bff (both named Margaret). My mom lost another friend last week too :(

5. Which countries did you visit?
Dude I was lucky to leave the county.

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
last year's answer, "My own place that I am the boss of, a job in a field I care about, an ADD diagnosis/treatment" still WORRYINGLY applies. To update it a little, though: a place to live by myself, a jorb in Davis, lack of math stress.

7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Ugh I just can't remember dates anymore. Can't do it. I will remember that Ariel's pseudowedding party happened in October and that is enough for me.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Worked hard at improving my level of function, applied to over nine thousand jobs, AND pulled together a UC application in a few weeks. Even though all my math stress got me precisely nowhere, at least I trucked onward, dauntless~

9. What was your biggest failure?
I think that'd have to go to my utter inability to close on a job. SO MANY INTERVIEWS. AGHHH. I am repulsive :(

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I was actually medicated all year long, but my depression got very severe in spring and all the Paxil in the world could barely make a dent on that or my anxiety which began seeping back in, so I switched to Effexor... whereupon I suffered a good six weeks or more of withdrawal/transition symptoms, most lingeringly nausea.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Deadline? I'm very excited about the Tennant/Tate Much Ado although I haven't actually had a chance to watch it yet. Tickets to the Asian Art Museum's Maharaja exhibit for Carrie's last day with me. Not sure if I bought my ridic expensive yellow jacket this year or last.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My life coach, all my friends!!!! both offline (the divine Ms. M and her rides helped more than once) and on (special shoutouts to Imry and Mem for writing halp above and beyond the call of duty), the Fairmont hotel driver who drove me and Carrie to the bus stop that one time. I think my sister is really trying, which is not to say that she didn't occasionally make the next category as well.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
My supremely unhelpful temp agency lady, all the cagey motherfuckers who didn't give me jobs. My family also had their moments. Steven Moffat. Bruce Bochy & Brian Sabean.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent. >:(

15. What were you really, really, really excited about?
Twitter acting like they were gonna give me a job. Hahahaha. WHOOPS. Also, like, The Hour and Hanna.

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
"Bag of Hammers" by Thao (and a lot of that album I would guess). "Power" by Kanye. "Fucking Best Song Everrr" by Wallpaper. "Rumour Has It" by Adele. I... did not listen to very much new music this year.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) Happier or sadder?


You know I have no memory, right? Probably a little happier. I have drugs that work finally and I've reached the point where I've put so many wheels in motion that I do feel vaguely convinced that something has to come through soon. L O L.

b) Bigger or smaller?

About the same.

c) Richer or poorer?

So fucking broke.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Writing and reading, eating well and exercise.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Catching up on tumblr... oh. :/ I had a few anxiety retreats-from-real-life and that sucked. Also I was desperately stressed out for the last couple of months and although it was because I was doing what I was supposed to, I wish... it had been easier? ALSO MATH BOOOOO

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
We all went to my aunt's house in Rainbow Valley (not its real name) and had atheist Jewish Christmas with dogs. My baby cousin is 6'3". wtf.

21. What was your favourite month of 2011?
Aw shit, no idea.

22. Did you fall in love in 2011?
Just with fiction.

23. What was your favourite TV programme?
Twin Peaks, The Hour, Treme, Parks & Rec, Nikita.

24. How did you see in the New Year?
I was at Ariel's with Carrie and then I couldn't sleep and wrote a giant commentary on my Yuletide.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I have a nemesis.

26. What was the best book you read?
THE DISPOSSESSED

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Thao Nguyen!!!

28. What did you want and get?
Better meds. A recording of Tennant/Tate Much Ado. Kate Spade yellow tights. Help.

29. What did you want and not get?
A motherfucking job. The Giants to comport themselves as world champions with the slightest bit of dignity (p.s. SHAVE IT OFF, Wilson). Math to be less terrible. Carrie to stay ;___;

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
Hannaaaaaaaaaaaa

31. What did you do on your birthday?
I made dinner, my dad made chocolate whiskey cake, and Carrie took me to see Jane Eyre.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Twitter hiring me (not just the fanciest job I interviewed for, but the FIRST).

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
"I WANT DRESSES" but mostly "what is the point I am just home all the time pajamas are comfortable"

34. What kept you sane?
Internerds and Effexor.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
oh, you know, all those jerks

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Trying to develop a better strain of feminism. Getting really irritated with exceptionalism of all kinds when the big picture is where it's at.

37. Who did you miss?
I missed Jen and Bummer oh-eleven!

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Feelingsnerds!! In person, Becca P (with whom I get to hang out periodically now!), Becca B, and Marog!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
last year: "The Giants won the World Series." Is not the obvious update "The Giants can't win the World Series without Buster Posey"?

I did have an epiphany, though: everything is something else, too.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

Got treasures in my mind but couldn’t open up my own vault
My childlike creativity, purity and honesty
Is honestly being crowded by these grown thoughts


('ye)

Alternately:

life is sad,
life is a bust
all you can do is do what you must
do what you must do, and you do it well


(teh dylan)
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[personal profile] noirmachinery 2011-12-31 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
Hello hello! This is Kyrie, making an effort to dust off her extremely neglected DW and actually friend some people over here, dang. (I don't know if I'll actually be taking up primary residence here yet, but LJ is, well. It is what it is, and so I'm checking out ~options.)

Also, good luck with jobhunting stuff in 2012! I, too, have recently undertaken this peril and the endless chain of not-getting-jobs is scientifically the worst. ONE OF THESE DAYS.
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[personal profile] skygiants 2011-12-31 06:04 pm (UTC)(link)
California and New York should be next to each other!
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[personal profile] softestbullet 2011-12-31 06:09 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm excited about all the DW stuff. <33

Oh man, you went through Effexor withdrawal?? You poor thing! I'm on it too, and just the experience of forgetting one dose was terrifying and miserable. But yay for meds working. :)

HANNA WAS BOSS.
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[personal profile] softestbullet 2012-01-04 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
Ack! May you never have to experience it again.

I totally totally do. [personal profile] antagonist explains it here. Any LJ layout works!
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[personal profile] whatimages 2012-01-02 05:13 am (UTC)(link)
Always glad to be of service! Here's to MOAR WRITING!!